Good evening! Or afternoon, morning, midday, and whatever’s in between.
Despite today being a remarkably uneventful day in my life, I am trying to return to my daily writing habits. Even if it’s just spewing random thoughts on the internet. My long-suffering computer is packed away somewhere in my things, and my thrifted typewriter is in my storage unit, so for the time being I’m confined to writing either by hand or on this silly little phone. I will have to postpone getting seriously back into writing until I am fully out of this studio apartment and starting my new life in my Subaru.
As I previously mentioned in my introduction post yesterday, I am in the process of letting go of my life here in Seattle, and starting a new healing journey of life on the road. I have less than 48 hours to be out of this place, so my sleep schedule has become highly erratic. That being said, I accidentally fell asleep yesterday afternoon after a 14 mile stroll around town, and woke up at about 1 in the morning. I live above a strip of bars in a vibrant neighborhood of the city, so in all honesty when this happens it’s, to an extent, my favorite time to wake. Hearing the bars die, the boisterous music from the vinyl bar directly below me, combined with the karaoke bar across the street and the subsequent other half a dozen bars on our little block, fading to only the voices of the drunken groups that refuse to let their nights end, to the absolute silence that is left over(other than the occasional screams and gunshots); i dont know. There’s something bliss about it.
I chose to spend that time watching Obsession- the new indie horror movie everybody’s been talking about. As anyone who I eventually(hope to) connect with here will undoubtedly learn, I am a huge horror nerd. It’s also part of my job to be so. Obsession is FANTASTIC. I do not wish to give away any spoilers, but I was hooked and was very sad when it came to an end. I highly recommend it to anyone who enjoys horror and wants something (fairly) original. The cast is outstanding; especially the protagonist(s) in their break out roles.
I spent much the rest of the morning doing nothing. Doom scrolling, a quick nap, a shower- anything to avoid putting shoes on and continuing the moving process. But eventually I had to. Thus began the never ending routine of grabbing whatever I could carry, tumbling down the stairs to the street, and hauling it across several crosswalks and blocks to where I was able to find a parking spot yesterday. I have ADHD, and as often happens, numerous times I got to my car and just decided to go for an aimless walk. It has been an absolutely beautiful day here, and I have at least one functioning AirPod, so it lifted my spirits immensely.
A big part of my decision to start a new life of just winging it on the road is re-connecting with nature. I have always been an extremely outdoors-y type person, but it’s gone downhill over the last half decade. For the first couple years I lived in this town, I didn’t have a reliable vehicle(or one at all for about a year), so my outdoors activities were limited to what I could reach on foot or with public transportation. Seattle, to be fair, is not the worst place for that. But, being forced to essentially be living outside is highly comforting to me. Im aware it will not be easy- this is not my first rodeo- but to me the benefits far outweigh the inconveniences.
As much as I enjoy writing, I have to continue this nightmarish move out. As terrible as it is, I just have to keep reminding myself that in a few days I can finally be completely done with it and continuing on this new journey of mine.
I hope everyone who has made it this far is having a fantastic day and knows that they deserve it. Keep your god damn heads up <3
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